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I am considering buying a new computer.  Until about a month ago, I hadn't even considered the possibility, because my Macbook has been a trusty friend for these past few years.  However, it is becoming a bit elderly.  I can't add anymore programs because the memory is full and I can't open up more than one application at a time without it freaking out and slowing down.  It has become quite a thorn in my side.

This might sound weird, but the other day, I felt like God prompted me to think about possibly investing in a new computer.  It is not something I would ever think to buy, especially in a time when my resources are extremely limited, due to my illness. However, my main outlets/ ways of coping with my illness right now are photography and writing, both of which are done on my computer.  So for right now, I am researching my options, saving up and trying to decide what computer I would like to buy when the time comes.

After spending a good deal of time on the Apple website, I have decided I am a computer idiot.  I don't know the difference between a GB and MB (is that even the right letters?)  And what's the difference between the memory and the RAM or are they the same thing?  And what do I REALLY need to increase my ability to edit my photos and what is just overpriced?  And what is a GHz?  (I actually did google all these things so I won't look like an idiot the next time I make it to the Apple store...)

To make matters worse, I made my way over to the Adobe website to check out photoshop programs and there are so many different versions ranging from $100-$2,000! Which one do I need?  And would I even be able to figure out Adobe Photoshop if I end up investing in a program someday?  My confidence is waning....

I have to say though, as I am writing I am realizing something profound.  While these type of experiences are both humbling and frustrating, I also find a certain kind of excitement in them.  Sometimes I grow tired of the monotany of my comfort zone.  I tend to do the things I feel good at and leave the rest alone.  This is an opportunity to learn something that I am not good at.  Just think of how good it would feel if I grew confident in my knowledge of computers and photoshop: two things that scare me to death!  It would be an accomplishment indeed.

Here are my goals:  First,I want to learn some basic terms so I can make an informed decision on which computer to buy.  Second, assuming I can save enough to buy photoshop someday, I would like to go to lessons at the apple store, so I don't spend a lot of money on a program that I don't know how to use.  Third, I would like learn how to organize my files better. I feel like such a computer slob.

More than anything, I want to learn how to have fun with my photos and my writing and use my computer as a tool for refining these skills...Wish me luck!  (I'm going to need it...)